I is for IVF

IVF - is where it looks like we are heading.  We had such high hopes this time..but this wasn't the one.  We will have our baby...one day :)

H is for our House and Hayden

Our House - We have lived in our house for 3 1/2 years and we really like it here.  We are in a great neighborhood and school district.  The kids have lots of friends here and sidewalks to ride their bikes.  We had to do some work when we moved in..and there is still alot more to do.  We will have it the way we want it one day.  I hope to stay here for a long, long time (unless we hit the lottery LOL).  FYI...I was excited about posting pictures of our house...but now i can't find them anywhere on this computer.  When the computer genius gets home I will have her look for them.

Hayden - he is our youngest.  He is smart and sensitive and handsome.  He is head strong and bossy.  He is loyal and loves to make new friends.  He likes movies, magic, video games and eating.  He is one of a kind :)

G is for Guilt and Gia

Guilt and Gia...

No, they don't go hand in hand.  As a matter of fact, these are totally unrelated. BTW, this is Janine blogging...the guilt is mine for not participating in Carey's adventures on here.  It's also for all that is bothering me today.  I am upset with myself for being so overweight, guilty for eating junk food and not getting nearly enough exercise.  I am guilty of not being a  friend who stays in touch, missing my best friend's wedding to go on vacation, and not answering my phone about 75% of the time.  Getting lost in the wealth of information on the internet is much like burying my nose in a book.  I'm an intellectual, a seeker of knowledge. The computer is millions of varied topics, free for my browsing, yet I feel guilty for the amount of time I am immersed in it.  I wonder if I had my nose in a book all the time 20 years ago- would people think of it in the same way?  My guess is probably not... Anyways, So the biggest thing affecting me today is my current physical state- and to be honest, I'm extremely overwhelmed by the amount of disappointment I feel in myself right now- I am on the verge of tears.

Okay, so I will end this depressing and "who wants to read this kind of crap?" posting on a happier note.   GIA...

Gia is my (hopefully) soon to be sister in law.  She successfully transformed my closest brother Josh (13 mos apart) from a hopeless alcoholic *sorry, Josh* to a real man with aspirations.  She is witty and has a pretty good sense of humor.  She is intelligent, fluent in spanish, and beautiful.  She is driven and makes conscious decisions.  Gia and I are alike in ways, but vastly different in others.  I appreciate her love for my brother, and I hope they can continue the relationship in the supportive ways they began.  I heart Gia...

PS. I am hoping we can make it til Tuesday for Carey's pregnancy test!!! Cross your fingers!

We will be back to our regularly scheduled program after the break

I am going to Daytona Beach, Florida tomorrow to visit with my mother and my brother.  My niece will be having her 2nd birthday party on Saturday.  I will write again when i get back :)

F is for Feet and being Fortunate

Feet - I have huge friggin feet!!  They are size 10...or sometimes 11!!  My dad has always called them skis..and I have hated it my whole life.  The good thing is that i can usually find shoes on sale because not many people buy them that big :)

being Fortunate - I don't have a job now and that is stressful...but I am trying to focus on what I do have.  I have Janine, who is my soulmate.  We have wonderful (and challenging) children.  I have a loving family.  I have great pets.  I have devoted and supportive friends (who I don't see often enough).  I am fortunate and thank God for giving me this wonderful life. 

Above are some pictures of usat the lake last weekend.

E is for Ellie

I am not finding much to blog about that starts with "E"... so this will be short and sweet :)

E is for Ellie our dog.  She is an awesome pet.  We have had her for about 2 years. She does lots of tricks and guards our house and yard.  She tries to mother the cats and the kids.  She is so smart and definitely one of the family.

D is for Dieting, Destiney

Dieting- is something I am always doing..or trying to do!!  I have been overweight most of my life and can never seem to get control of it.  I try to blame it on my PCOS or being big boned..but I know that I just eat too much junk.  I don't like alot of vegetables so I eat way too many carbs. Hopefully one day I will reach my goal..but until then you have to just love me the way I am:)

Destiney - is my friend's daughter.  She and her sister come over and the stay the night with us alot.  We just love her and think she will be a famous model one day (see picture above).

C is for Carey, California, and Carolina

Carey - of course is my name.  I never liked it growing up because no one ever ever spells it right.  It is spelled like a boy, so I could never really find things with my name printed on them as a kid (unless it was something for a boy).  I have several nicknames: CareyBell, CareyBerry, CareBear, and my all time favorite..NOT....ScaryCarey.

California - is where I am going in April.  Like I said before I am not looking forward to the flight, but I have never been out west, so I am super excited!  Janine and I are taking the boys and we are flying into San Francisco for 4 days, then we are driving up through Oregon and Washington to her sister's house on Whidbey Island.  It is a couple hours north of Seattle at the Navy base. We will be gone a total of 12 days and I will take tons of pictures and videos.

Carolina - is home for me :)  I have lived and worked in Carolina (North and South) my whole life.  Even though I have never lived anywhere else, I have a great appreciation for home.  I am 2 hours from the mountains and 3 hours from the beach.  The people here are friendly and really show their southern hospitality.  Come and visit ya'll :)

B is for Babies, Brusters, and The Bachelor

Babies - We have been wanting one for a long time :)  We are now on try #7.  I trigger tomorrow and IUI should be on Saturday.  I have 5 follicles this time, so my nurse called me to warn me about the chance for multiples.  I am really not worried by this because we done this 7 TIMES already and nothing!!  We would love to have a girl since we already have 2 boys, but a healthy boy will be just fine too.  I think we have decided that if the doctor uses both of the vials of IUI that we have left then we will move on to IVF next..if not we will do one more IUI cycle.  PLEASE PRAY FOR US THAT THIS TIME WORKS!!!

Brusters - has my most favorite ice cream..I love that place!!  They have a flavor called Peanut Butter Puddles that is amazing.  We have a Brusters about 10 mins from our house and we take the kids every chance we get.  If you ever get the chance to try it..you really should!!

The Bachelor - I am sure that everyone has heard what happened already, but I am still pissed about it.  I really like the show, but after Monday night I am really considering not watching again.  I personally think it was set up that way.  I hope that Melissa finds someone way hotter than Jason!!!

A is for Adam, Andrew, Avery, and airplanes

Adam, Andrew, and Avery are 3 of the people that I love most in the world..and I hate airplanes...so the good stuff first.

Adam - He is my only brother and is 3 years younger than me.  As kids we used to fight all the time, but now that we have grown up and he has moved away to Florida I miss him like crazy.  He has a great job and beautiful family and I am very proud of him.

Andrew -  He is my first and only nephew.   He is 7 years old and lives about 10 miles away from me.  He is an excellent swimmer and very smart.  I don't see him as much as I would like, but I hope he knows how much I love him and what a good boy he is.

Avery - She is my beautiful 2 year old niece.  She is my brother's daughter and she lives in Florida.  She loves babies, horses, and being outside.  She looks a lot like me when I was little.  I am going to see her in 2 weeks and I can't wait!!!

Airplanes - I hate them!!  I have only flown a handful of times, but each time I feel sick and like I am going to have a panic attack.  I am flying again in April and it will be my longest flight yet..all the way to California.  I am scared already :(

Blogging The Alphabet

So I got this idea from a blog that I read sometimes and I thought I would try it to see if I can actually finish it.  I am going to write a blog on every letter of the alphabet and give some info about me that has to do with the letter that I am blogging about.  I may not get to it every day, but I will try my best to stay consistent.  I think a lot of posts will be about people who have names that start with that letter, but I will try and put some other stuff in also.  I am still having some trouble with formatting my posts the way I want them..so bare with me and enjoy :)