G is for Guilt and Gia

Guilt and Gia...

No, they don't go hand in hand.  As a matter of fact, these are totally unrelated. BTW, this is Janine blogging...the guilt is mine for not participating in Carey's adventures on here.  It's also for all that is bothering me today.  I am upset with myself for being so overweight, guilty for eating junk food and not getting nearly enough exercise.  I am guilty of not being a  friend who stays in touch, missing my best friend's wedding to go on vacation, and not answering my phone about 75% of the time.  Getting lost in the wealth of information on the internet is much like burying my nose in a book.  I'm an intellectual, a seeker of knowledge. The computer is millions of varied topics, free for my browsing, yet I feel guilty for the amount of time I am immersed in it.  I wonder if I had my nose in a book all the time 20 years ago- would people think of it in the same way?  My guess is probably not... Anyways, So the biggest thing affecting me today is my current physical state- and to be honest, I'm extremely overwhelmed by the amount of disappointment I feel in myself right now- I am on the verge of tears.

Okay, so I will end this depressing and "who wants to read this kind of crap?" posting on a happier note.   GIA...

Gia is my (hopefully) soon to be sister in law.  She successfully transformed my closest brother Josh (13 mos apart) from a hopeless alcoholic *sorry, Josh* to a real man with aspirations.  She is witty and has a pretty good sense of humor.  She is intelligent, fluent in spanish, and beautiful.  She is driven and makes conscious decisions.  Gia and I are alike in ways, but vastly different in others.  I appreciate her love for my brother, and I hope they can continue the relationship in the supportive ways they began.  I heart Gia...

PS. I am hoping we can make it til Tuesday for Carey's pregnancy test!!! Cross your fingers!